Stephen Harper's Crusade to Save Marriage.

My mother used to recite a verse that ran, something like this;

I have never seen a purple cow
and I hope I never see one
but, this I will say anyhow,
I'd rather see than be one.

I can imagine Stephen Harper trying to say this about gays and lesbians. He would rather have us just disappear so he would not have to face the implications of the last line. Most studies conclude that the most strident homophobes are some way in touch with their own gay potential. Could it be that Stephen Harper has had some kind of experience that underlies his fear of what gay marriage means? I don't think so. But one wonders since he is so desperately trying to wed the religious and civil aspects of our national life. If he were successful, then perchance, he might have to face polygamy. Polygamy after all has its strongest adherents in the religious community. Polygamy is, after all, scriptural.....

So it is only natural that the religious Mr. Harper is thinking about the possiblity of polygamy. Our worst fears are manifested somtimes in our dreams, so I wonder what Mr. Harper will think of next in his crusade to uphold the tradition of heterosexual marriage. It is commonly known how well the straight population have maintained the sanctity of marriage with their low rates of divorce, non-existent adultery and re-marriage. Then, there, is the Roman catholic church which is a paragon of sexual virtue; just ask the hundreds of sexual abuse victims about the "morality" of the church. The world will never cease to offer comments and situations to amuse the common observer.

Blogging Challenges for the Challenged!

I enjoy blogging, that is I consider my enjoyment as a blogger. It is the oone time and space whereI write about my observations, my life and whatever comes to mind. But I continue to be frustrated by the very technology that intrigues me and invites me to write.

I have attempted to upload a photo by Picasa and it does not work for me! I have tried to install blogroll and it has not worked! Is the universe trying to tell me something? I have joined tribe net and created two tribes for specific discussion groups, I am facilitating at Gayway, the Gay Mens Resource Exchange in Vancouver. I am facinated by technological possibilities for creating virtual community and yet, I have more success at creating real community. Or at least, it appears I jave more success at planting the seeds of real community. It makes wonder what Jesus would have done with a medium like tribe net? Would we have an undeniable record of how radical Jesus was?

Jesus was a radical faerie! I am taking that line from now on and no one will be able to dissuade me from it. I will become a radical faerie fundamentalist with all the vigour of my cock sucking little heart and become a bottom for any guy who wants to press his point! But I will back up my position with rigourous pushing from my own position. It is a tough argument, but someone has to take it up! Too bad, I wasn't as determined in trying to figure out the attempts I have made to improve my blog. But I will continue to re-visit the possiblities of installing blogroll and uploading a photo, so you can see who is writing this relatively useless material.

Meanwhile, fuck happily,

the awakening faerie shaman

Fisting My Ass!

I have been thinking about it for some time. The delicious feeling of having someone caressing your ass, massaging it in a rotating motion. The first time it happened was in the stairway of a shopping mall in Saint John New Brunswick. I hardly knew what the guy was up to, but I was so hot and bothered that I cared less. It wasn't until he was inside me, that I sure my eyes opened wider than my ass! I was astonished as he slowly started to punch and move deep inside me. The fear was ecstacy as I heard the doors on the upper and lower levels, open and close as people spoke obnoxiously about their lives. The feeling of that fist in my ass made the sounds of the rest of the world pale into mere background noise. I knew his joy was that he had me, that scared early twenties guy who cruised him in the washroom on several occasions. I wanted to show him what I was made of!

It is the idea that on the surface someone else is in control, although I have since learned through discussions that the bottom is really the one in control. It seems as though I have entred a whole new phase in my life, one where I want the tattoo and I want the experience of being fisted! How can that be, the thought scares me and yet I am so intrigued I can't let the fantasy die. The fantasy has a life of its own and I am being carried with it to the shadow realm where the physical and the spiritual meet in pure light! I want it to be a special ritual, one with anointing of oil and the air of a religious moment suitable for the marking of a passage. A passage, I am making from the scared little boy of forty some odd years ago into the man I am now.

This is me.......your awakening faerieshaman Be Blessed!

So What are the 4 Agreements?

The Four agreements are: Be Impeccable with your Word, Don't take anything personally, Don't make assumptions, and finally; Always do your best.

The agreements are based in the ancient Toltec wisdom of Mexico. To engage them fully, it requires a person to work at defining their "authentic self" and then working to realte from that place of integrity. Already, I have experienced the wonderful freedom of not taking a particular situation personally. I was able to act rather than re-act to the person. I have also begun to note how many times I make assumptions about what others are thinking or base my understanding on a misperception.

An important note, I remember in regards to always doing your best is the point that your best is different if you are ill or well, etc. It is important in all of these agreements to keep in mind that it is better to act out of a place of love; and to be aware of the inner judge, the inner victim and how our old agreements formed over the years are causing us to suffer and other choices can be made by each one of us.

Where I have Been........

After a hiatus, I am returning to my blog. It has been a busy and eventful Yule Season and now 2005 is well under way. I took some time away from the blog to rest and create visions of what I want to do this year.

I plan to offer my services as a spirited guide within the gay and gayfriendly communities. I hope to continue to build and create a community of gay men who are committed to being consciously aware and interested in creating "intentional community." I envision a community that rejoices in its non-conformity and feels hope in the sense that the values of love and compassion are being refreshed. As one faerie said today, the faerie community is experiencing a rebirth in Vancouver and it is so precious when in other places the prevailing experience of many is isolation and loneliness.

The Vancouver radical faeries had a terrific yule party at Coffee a-go-go! The Holly King and the Oak king struggled to overcome one another, only to have the Holly King submit! Faerie Coffee is now at Coffee-a-go-go, every Sunday from ten to one, and it continues to have a good number turn out to enjoy the faerie energy.

My new discussion group on "The Four Agreements" commenced over a week ago. I find the premise of the Four Agreements to be useful to change my perspective and experience of my community and the world. I am hoping my second group discussing "Gay Soul" will commence this Wednesday; though I have heard many of the guys could not get the book!

Today, I went to the NDP nomination meeting for Vancouver Burrard to choose the person who will run against Lorne Mayencourt. After two ballots, Tim Stevenson won the nomination. Allison McDonald made it a very close race. I felt satisfied with the result because I like Tim, but did not feel I could support him. I did what I had to do for my authentic self; I did what my heart required of me. I let go of the fear about "what if Tim doesn't win because of my vote" and acted according to my values. In the end, I had done what I needed to do for myself and I was not disappointed in the least that Tim Stevenson won.

Politics and world affairs were heavily influenced by the "collective consciousness" and compassion of the world community. I read a commentary that pointed out the irony of the political leaders in the Western world all lamenting the tragedy, havoc and the loss of human life caused by the Tsunami; while the same leaders, namely George W. Bush ignore the true human cost in Iraqi lives caused by policies of "enforced" freedom!

So, I am back at the computer and I will provide an update and running commentary on the awakening of a Faerieshaman. So for now, I wish one and all a year of desires.....a year of hope and inner peace....